Thursday, June 23, 2016

Nobody knows the real ME

Nobody knows the real Me

Nobody knows how many times I've sat in my room and cried tears of pain.  How many times I've lost hope, how many times I've been let down.  How many times I have had to hold back tears.  When I'm sad, the bad thoughts that go through my mind.  How many times I have felt like a complete failure as a man, husband, and father.  Sometimes the strongest people are the ones who love beyond all faults, cry behind closed doors and fight battles that nobody understands or knows about.  I keep myself together for the ones I love.  Only those who have known darkness can truly appreciate the light.  Nobody knows the real Me, except Jesus.

He knows the tears I've cried, the lost hope, and those time when nothing is right.  He knows when I've about lost my mind, and hold back the tears.  He knows my broken heart, and the pain in my mind.  He knows what happens behind closed doors and the battles I've fault.  He knows that I've given my all to appear hopeful in times of disparity.  He knows my darkness and has prepared me for the light of the future.  He knows my heart....

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Weight Loss Program - Be Careful

I recently started a diet program called Isagenix.  This proved to be non-beneficial and actually caused me to transcend into several major problems.  It required me to do a 9 day body cleanse, and 2 replacement meals a day and reduce calories to around 400-600 per day.

I am telling all my friends who suffer with dementia like me, don't try this type of program.  It caused me to be very irritable, lethargic, sleepy all day, weakness in all extremities, terrible migraine headaches, tremors worsen, dizziness, unexplained emotional thoughts, terrible dreams, and several other issues.

The first few days I felt great and then the downward spin came on fast and hard.  They said you may feel like you have the flu at first, but I bypassed all that and went straight to an onslaught of all the problems.

I actually thought because of all the positive outcomes for others, it would work for me.  Frontotemporal Degeneration patients should recognize and watch any program like this and know when to stop as soon as problems arise.  Always remember we are not the same as we use to be and can't do things that others do to improve body image.

I believe my days of water slides and roller coasters are over.....They have weight limits!  Lol